happy birthday

how funny it is to celebrate life and death at the same time, side by side, with the same tension, with the same emotional investment...
not even two months ago i lost an important person from my life
more than two and a half years i met an even more important, perhaps the most important person of my life
you know, that person who will be there when you are sick, angry, frustrated, happy, sad, drunk, in a silly mood, in a playful mood
the person who is now, and more likely, forever a loyal best friend
even when the best friends, those you grew up with, those who you walked through fire with, even when those are probably occupied with their own lives
even when they seem to forget you
well, my partner is celebrating his 30th birthday
what a milestone or is it?
it doesn't really matter....what matters is that he is happy
that he enjoys his birthday
that he gets back a little of the happiness and love he has given me
that is not to say that i don't want to kill him at times, or that he doesn't hurt me at times
i am sure, actually, that he can say the same about me!
but, love and communication tramp anger and frustration!
and that is certainly what my mom saw when she loved this guy instantly!