new beginnings

I have completed 30 years of living last Friday.
All of a sudden I feel a bit more mature, a bit more composed.
Maybe now I am ready to take on a bit more...who knows...time will tell...

so many changes in so little time

Last night I found out that I became an aunt again...my best friend, my sister, had her son yesterday. This was the first time in our 17 years of friendship that I was not there during this great new beginning....it made me sad...

Tomorrow I am turning 30...I don't know how to feel about that.
I thought I would have children by now.
I don't.
I thought I would be done with school by now, I am not!
I thought my mom would still be alive.
She is not.

It's now a sad day...it's just one of those gray days...

I don't want things to change. I just want to be able to catch up!